Aftermath

It's been a little over 5 weeks since my surgery. It's seems like it was a long time ago, yet I'm suspended in a dreamlike disbelief. For over a year, my heart surgery was my whole life. I had to plan, deal, have daily break-downs, have several medical tests, meet doctors and surgeons and get past the holidays. My Caringbridge site took up what little writing energy I had.
It's impossible to get back to normal. Life will never be the same and that's a good thing. I made it through something in which I could not foresee my survival. God was good and I'm blessed! Now, I will express my gratitude by how I live each day. With my body still healing, my mind is open to all the possibilities again. For the first time in my life, I can tell myself that I deserve good things and I deserve to be happy.
Besides the impending surgery, last year was difficult. My mom's health has been steadily going downhill and well as my step-father's. I could not continue grad school with my own health issues. My Aunt Ruth began losing her battle with her health and Alzheimer's. It's still a difficult time for my family and I know this year we will face more hard times. I hope my strength and all the blessings will persevere for all of us.
I am going to try to get back to writing. It's been a long time since I've been actively writing. I missed it! Hope I can write about all sorts of things on this blog now! Life goes on and guess what? I'm still standing!